Long time coming

What a weekend I just had, it was mentally, physically and emotionally exhausting. Well I guess it wasn’t just this weekend but for the last 4 months of training and about 20 years in the making.

It all started about 20 years ago…. like I said long time coming, I attended my very first yoga class. I remember it like it was yesterday, I walked into class with a yoga mat under my arm and was super nervous and excited to try this “practice” they called it. As I walked in I noticed the yoga teacher and she smiled at me and said welcome, and asked if I have done any yoga before and I said no, then she said you can find a spot anywhere you would like. So I went to the very back of the room placed my mat down and sat waiting for whatever was going to happen.

People started coming in and the room was starting to fill up. The teacher then told us to start by lying down on our mats. We all did. She then started to tell us to connect with our breath by breathing in our nose and out the mouth. She said to set an intention for our practice and I remember thinking huh? Intention? For what? She then told us to get up in seated position and we started stretching our arms, and back with twists. Then we were going to do sun salutations. I am pretty sure at this point the look on my face was so confused it was definitely showing on my face like a wart on a witch’s face.

Anyways, she proceeded to tell us how to do these sun salutations, and she said lots of words I didn’t understand at all and I started to look around the room thinking oh goodness what have I gotten myself into!? I remember looking around at all the other students in the class trying my best with the poses. After we did a few of them in a row I was beginning to get tired and out of breath. I was so happy when she said we were going to do other postures like Warrior 1. We did a bunch more postures, we got to lie back down on our backs again and we did “cool down” and then the room got quiet. She softly told us to be aware of the room again and get up and said thank you for coming to this practice “namaste”.

After the hour long yoga class, I wasn’t sure what to think of this “practice”. I left so fast I didn’t even let the teacher have a chance to talk to me after class! I was so lost, I felt so out of place I just wanted to go home. When I got home I started to research the yoga postures she had said that I could remember. I googled sun salutation and it showed the various poses that I had done in class. When I saw these postures online I decided to go again, to see if I would enjoy it having a little more understanding of at least the sun salutations.

I went to the next class the following week, where I lived at the time it was a small town and it was only offered once a week in the evening so I went again and this time let me tell you this time I didn’t go to the very back of the class. I moved up into the middle this time so I could watch the teacher closely. What a difference that made. My experience was totally different the second time. I was so happy when I left class that evening, I knew this was something I wanted to learn more of and practice to get better at it.

I signed up for more classes and tried different types but at that time there really wasn’t a whole lot of varieties like there is today but I tried out each type and loved going to Hatha classes. After going for a while, I really was loving yoga, I even tried to see what it would entail being a yoga teacher but life got busy with having three kids, work and health issues that popped up it just didn’t work for me to attend. Plus it was getting harder to get an instructor to come out to our small town to teach classes, so you would have to drive at least an hour to a class. I did try some yoga on dvds at home but it just wasn’t the same atmosphere at home as it was in a studio or space.

Slowly my yoga practice was getting non existent. We were moving around a lot to smaller communities and it was even more difficult to get to a yoga practice because it wasn’t offered. My desire to be a yoga teacher grew more thou, due to the lack of yoga classes being offered to smaller communities but again I didn’t have the time or money to do it. When I was researching how much it was to take the training it was between $5,000 – $10,000 depending where you were going to take it and there weren’t very many schools teaching it near where I was living.

Years go by and I still had this desire to be a yoga teacher. Three years ago, we moved to another city and this time we were empty-nesters, no kids to look after, I didn’t have a job to go to yet so I took the time to take “me” time. I am not going to lie being an empty nester was not easy, I struggled with my identity, I was no longer taking care of any of the kids and I didn’t know what to do since they were my primary focus for 18 years of their lives. So I went back to exercise, joined a fitness club and thought maybe it was time to get back into shape, however I went for six months and knew in my heart it just wasn’t for me. So I looked into doing something else and I couldn’t believe that I totally forgot about YOGA!!!

I went online to find some yoga studios to find classes, well…..I was so surprised at how many there were first of all, second, so many different classes are being offered. I didn’t even know what kind they were so I tried ones that I thought were safe for me. Again, I went to a yoga class with mat under my arm, nervous and excited at the same time because it has been quite a few years since my last yoga class. Again the teacher greeted me in the room, again the same questions but this time I told her that I had previous experience but now I am limited in some of the poses. She was so grateful for me to mention this because she had said that she could help with modifications. I was so surprised when she said this to me because when I first started yoga years ago there were no modifications especially the classes I took. Class started and omg!!! I fell in love again! The instructor was so helpful with the modifications and the class was so lovely, I knew that I was going to bring yoga back into my life.

Being a yoga teacher was still something I wanted to do, so I looked online for yoga training that would be close by but unfortunately there wasn’t one. There was a school approximately two hours away and they weren’t offering a course until July and it wasn’t even offered in the same city where the school was! Again I was in the same dilemma I was years ago, where I had to drive, so I thought well…… if I have to drive anyways why not find a school that I could at least stay with family?? So I searched on Yoga Alliance’s website for schools in the Edmonton area. I looked and looked at so many, there weren’t too many schools offering courses until the fall of 2020, until I found Higher Love Yoga Academy. I read their reviews, which had the most by the way and were all excellent ones, so I opened their website to read more. I couldn’t believe it but I could feel through their website that this was the school I wanted to sign up with. So, I contacted them to find out what would be the requirements and if there were any restrictions, plus I wanted to let them know I had some limitations and if that would be a problem. After a quick response, they said it wasn’t an issue but I responded back with before committing I needed to make sure I got the clearance with my doctor to take the course.

After, I got the clearance from my doctor there wasn’t anything stopping me to join so that day I paid the tuition and was registered! I still remember it like it was yesterday! Jan 17, 2020 and class was to start on Jan 24, 2020! It was one week away! I felt so excited and overwhelmed because I felt maybe it was a rash decision to do this but I paid the tuition already and I went that first weekend in Edmonton. The first night meeting all the ladies and Sara the instructor whom I had been in contact with felt so right being there that I knew I was meant to be there. Training was for 8 weekends through out 4 months, the training was all weekend and very intense. Lots of yoga in the short amount of hours in the weekend that we had to learn. I remember about the 3rd weekend in I hit a wall, I didn’t know if I could continue or if this was for me. One of the instructors, Kristen told us we would at one point hit a wall but assured us we would push through and she was right! Kristen was so supportive when I told her I was hitting that wall, and I did push through!

Then Covid 19 happened……and the world shut down. I was so worried, wasn’t sure what was going to happen because we as the world wasn’t allowed to be in public places with more than 15 people and we had to social distance! Well how do you do that with yoga? You are constantly in close contact with people. However, thank goodness for the internet and Sara, she told us that we would continue our training online and Yoga Alliance was allowing this method and we would be still recognized as yoga teachers. So we did our training online and at first it wasn’t easy because we had to figure out how to teach online, but as time went on we got it! We did our training as scheduled as if we were all in person. I looked forward to seeing everyone even thou it wasn’t “in person” but it was still great to see them virtually. Especially when we had been house bound.

Now fast forward to this past weekend, this was our practicum weekend and we had to teach our own 1 hour sequenced class to our peers. I chose to teach prenatal class for my practicum because I eventually want to further my education to prenatal yoga teacher. Now I am not going to lie, teaching prenatal was harder than I thought, so many safety cues to point out and to figure out what poses were safe for pregnant women. I had put a sequence together and with the help of my teacher making sure I wasn’t putting any poses that could potentially put pregnant women at risk and practiced it. Boy did I practice, I think out of the 4 weeks of practice I only missed 4 days due to a “quick bathroom” renovation haha. So this weekend we all taught our sequences to each other and it was AMAZING!! But also intense because it was a lot of yoga in a day! I had my “class” at 3:30 on Saturday last one of the day, I was excited and nervous at the same time. I had my sequence printed on paper in front of me so I could follow it along like I had practiced all month but I was so nervous that I didn’t even follow it! I was rambling but probably wasn’t but you think you are when teaching because you are in your head too much haha but I pushed through and finished. I couldn’t believe it, DONE!! I received my pass and I couldn’t be more grateful. I PASSED!!! I completed my 200hr YTT!! I am a certified yoga teacher!

I still can’t believe it! I did what I wanted to do for almost 20 yrs and now it’s here. I have been so emotional that I have been crying off and on because I DID IT! I DID IT! I am sure it won’t really sink in until I start getting out and teaching, once the world comes together again one day. Also I want to say is I have been a firm believer in everything happens in your path for a reason and it’s all about timing. I now know why it took me almost 20 yrs to become a yoga teacher and I couldn’t be more grateful for this opportunity now. I know I wasn’t in the right mind set to be a yoga teacher in the last 20 yrs and with my new business flourishing I know that this is apart of it.

I had seen a medium about 2 yrs ago and in my reading she was telling me things about my dad at the time and out of the blue she mentioned a name……..Sara, she says, she asked me if I knew a Sara and I said no I didn’t. She said to remember that name because this person, this Sara was going help me bring out my creativity side. I didn’t think much of it until the first weekend I met all the ladies at my yoga teacher training, it occurred to me the second night when I woke up I remembered my reading. I went back (I had taped it lol) to listen to it and there it was! Sara!

Right then I knew this was my timing and she was the one who was going to help me on my journey. I am so very grateful for this woman, Sara is one of the most remarkable woman (insert tears lol) I have ever met with her quotes of wisdom and stories, she has made me want to be a better person. I have learned so much not just with her but also with the history of yoga and what it represents and how to apply it to my life. I have forever changed from this learning and I hope to continue to share this with as much passion as she does who has done this training and teaching. I am forever grateful for the knowledge of the 2 other instructors who taught us anatomy, trauma and all their experiences, Lisa and Kristen you have brought so much to this journey that it added so much more than just yoga for that I thank you both as well.

Last but not least, I am so ever grateful, honoured and proud for the ladies I shared this experience with it has been such a pleasure to get to know these ladies, and can’t wait to see all of our journeys ahead. So thank you Hailey, Roshni, Pam, Jessica, Alana, Dee, Valentina, Joanna, Kate, Kristel, Alicia and Chantelle. You ladies are always going to be my family, love you all. We all rock! We are going to be the best teachers!

HELLYA!!!!

S

 

 

 

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Wow! Time really does fly…….

Wow! Time really does fly…….I was sitting here thinking what should I do since we are stuck at home with the pandemic of Covid 19 and thought when was the last time I wrote? I couldn’t remember the last time I wrote on my blog, so, I decided to look at the website and see when was the last time I posted, after I looked up the saved password to get in haha. Anyway I finally logged in and I couldn’t believe how long it was…….2015!!!! 5 yrs ago!! I couldn’t believe it! Like seriously! 5 yrs has gone by and I hadn’t touched this blog. Then I checked my “about me” page and saw this…

I am a happily married 30 something, who is a mother to three wonderful children, I married my best friend in 1994.  I am a wife, mother, who loves to run, read , learn new things, speak my mind , would love to become an inspiring blogger/writer someday, and is a Sudden Arrhythmia Death Survivor.

With this blog, I hope to reach out to people on many levels, from topics with others that suffered Sudden Arrhythmia Death Syndrome (SADS), learning to live with an ICD (Implantable Cardioverter Defibrillator), just life in general with kids, health and running.The possibilities are endless!

Thanks for taking the time to get to know me!

S

I laughed out loud when I saw 30 something, First of all, I am no longer in my thirties, I am now in my forties (not going to lie I was feeling a little bit old seeing that) haha.  So, when I have saw that I knew I definitely have to update that and thought maybe it was time to post something new too, maybe a little update in my life?? Because a lot has changed.

Like I said I am no longer in my “30’s” I am now in my “40’s” haha so if you need to do the math good luck, a woman never reveals her age. Still married, still have 3 children but 2 of them are married now, and I am a grandmother, well Omi they call me, I have 2 granddaughters and they are my world! Which I am terribly missing them due to this Covid 19 we are going through right now. Hope to get to see them and squeeze them tight soon. Now, lets see what else, Oh! I no longer run, unfortunately I am no longer allowed due to the heart and ICD, but I have come to terms with it and actually enjoy walking, (speed walking according to my kids and hubby haha) I have taken the time to enjoy walking and looking at nature more, there is so much to see when you are walking and not rushing by missing the leaves on trees or the buzzing sound of the bees in the trees or bushes. Saying hello to people as you walk by instead of saying excuse me,  you’re in my way or I’m on your right.

We have moved again in those 5yrs to another city, which has it’s pros and cons like any place you live in but when you have lived in small rural areas for off and on 20yrs being in a city is great for just grabbing something to eat or just stopping in the mall just to browse, or getting to go to the Movie theatre, to the Y to exercise or join classes, all kinds of things you can do in a city. Then again it can be a con, spending more money, getting fat because you are eating out more, buying things that you probably don’t need but you buy just because you want it. But the pro of living here especially where we are is the scenery, we are literally only 10 houses away from the Coulees and it is so beautiful. Another pro is you don’t have to drive an hour or two to get to a city to get all the things you need.

Anyways, I am just rambling on, time to move on to the next thing that has changed. I have changed careers, I no longer work in the Administrative world. I have my own little business now, I am currently a Spiritual Healer, Reiki Practitioner, Birth & Postpartum Doula. I started my little business over a year ago and started in my home for a while but I decided to move and rent a space. I moved into a space Mar 1 of this year but only got to work for a few weeks since we were shut down due to Covid 19. It was going so well too! I cannot wait until I get to go back to help give healing to people. However, I have been working on little projects to keep me busy for now until I go back. I cannot wait to share those later.

Well, I think that is it for now, I hope to update a little more often than five years…….so for now I will post this and update my “about me”

 

S

not over it

I thought I was doing well living a “normal life”, watching my health doing light exercises. Well apparently, I am not. Why? Well a few months ago, I had to go to the hospital. I was having severe chest pains. At first when I felt this sharp pain I ignored it. I had ignored it because I thought “oh it’s nothing”. ( I know what you’re thinking….stupid why are you ignoring chest pains??) I had ignored this pain for a couple of hours. It was our anniversary, DC and I decided to go out for supper.

While we were at supper I continued to have these sharp pains, it felt like it was shooting directly to the heart. DC saw me jump one time when I had really bad one and asked me if I had the hiccups. I replied no, and said I’ve had these sharp pains in the chest. DC asked me if we should go to the hospital, and I of course said no I’m fine. But DC knew better and said he was taking me to the hospital.

When we finished our supper, I know again…stupid waiting until we finished our supper but I didn’t want to go. I was so nervous. I was being stubborn. When we arrived to the Emergency, the nurse asked what was my reason for coming in. I told her that I had chest pains. She looked at me with a puzzled face, like “really?” I told her that I have a history of heart problems and an ICD. The nurse asked me questions about my symptoms and said to go straight thru the emergency so I could be looked at right away.

We went in and the emergency nurse immediately put me in a room told me to undress so she could put the heart monitor on me. Then she immediately put an IV in, this all happened within 10 mins. I couldn’t believe how quickly they were attending to me. They told me they take any chest pain very seriously and do not take any chances. Well this made me worry, I started to panic and I started to cry because I didn’t want something to happen again. Made me think about when I first collapsed and when I was shocked. All the emotions of that made me cry and I realized I wasn’t over it. I wasn’t over the trauma.

The doctor came in and did an assessment, checked my heart, ordered a blood test to make sure I didn’t have a blood clot forming, sent me for an ECG. Nothing showed any signs of a heart attack or stroke, the next thing the doctor suggested that it might be my lead from the ICD. He said that it might be possible the lead moved and is giving me little electrical shocks.

I started to panic, I looked at DC and just burst in to tears. I did not want to hear that! The doctor said I needed a CT scan done to see if the lead moved but couldn’t do it until the morning when the tech would come in. DC and I went home for a few hours to sleep, which I didn’t get much of. I just of course worried. Finally morning came and we went back to the hospital for the scan.

After a few hours at the hospital I had a cardiologist come look at the scan results and told me that the ICD did not move! I was so relieved!! But we still didn’t know why I was getting sharp chest pains until after one of the nurses said she had similar pains but it was because she was exercising too hard. Well! It was like a doorbell went ding! In my brain and I knew! I knew why I was getting the pain! I was helping DC put boards down for our deck. I remembered, I was holding the board too long and I said to DC to hurry because it was making my arm sore.

The doctor had given me some medication to help with the pain but said if it still persisted I was to come back. After we left the hospital, I couldn’t believe by holding one board would hurt me that much and made me realize, I am still not over it and it will be one day at a time……….

New Year’s Resolution 2011

My New Year’s Resolution for 2011 was to start running, since my brother K and sister-in-law M, inspired me. I pretty much started right away in January.  I had started on the treadmill because where I live it’s not all that great weather, plus I didn’t want to run and freeze my butt haha, I’m kinda a wimp when it comes to winter.

Like I said I started to run and I ended up getting the Couch to 5K app on my iPhone and by the way if you are wanting to start running this app is the perfect way to start! (well I think so anyways).

After about a month of running on the treadmill, the weather started to warm up, and on Feb 15th I headed outside and ran!  Let me tell you, what a difference I felt from running on the treadmill to outside! The ground didn’t help your feet and the air hit my lungs like a ton of bricks! but I did the full 5K that day and I ended doing a time of approx 44 mins! I was so proud of myself because I didn’t think that I could run at all and here I did 5K!! I was so happy and proud that the next day I did it again! I know you aren’t supposed to run back to back like that, but I couldn’t help myself, and got a time of 38:50!

I knew then that I was going to full fill my New Year’s Resolution and I signed up for the Brandon’s YMCA Spring Run. I couldn’t wait for May 29th to come! I was running at least three days a week to prepare myself for this 5K run. Each time I was running to prepare, I saw myself improving and feeling great with accomplishment! I also really started to enjoy running it almost became an addiction haha.

May 29th came and boy was I ever nervous! I have never done any running, especially with other people and so many too! I ran the 5K in 37:11, at first I was kinda disappointed in myself with the time, but my close friend who ran the 5K with me said,” why are you disappointed? you did it! you said you were going to run this year and you did it! who cares about the time!” At that moment, I totally agreed with her, I did do it! I was so proud of myself and her for accomplishing our goal that year! and we did it together!

After we had done the run, I went home and talked with K and M, they were really proud of me, then they said to me now your next goal to run a half a marathon with us! I laughed………….

the change

From the last post I had said that we had a change in 2007, the change started actually in 2006 when my hubby decided he needed a career change and it was something that he has always wanted to do, but because of marriage, kids etc he wasn’t able to do this career change until June 2006.

DC (hubby) had wanted to apply for the government, he did all the testing that was required and passed with flying colors. He got the official word that he would be hired, which wasn’t until Feb 19,2007! Yes I know what you’re thinking, that was a long process, and yes it was! Anyways, when he got the official date that he would be hired, he had to go for training. When finished he would have to move from Alberta to Manitoba where he would work.

Needless to say , we weren’t all that happy to move two provinces away. Since we had lived in Alberta for just about 17 yrs! The kids (which we have 2 girls and a boy, C 15 yrs, D 12 yrs and E 7 yrs) had been born where we were , went to school since Kindergarten, had lots of family and friends. Where as we didn’t have any friends or family in Manitoba. It was a hard difficult decision but we all understood that DC wanted to do this since he graduated high school.  We had moved to a rural town in south-western Manitoba of August 2007, we still live in Manitoba, and it’s been almost 5 yrs, it has gone quicker than I imagined! The kids had surprisingly settled in quite nicely, made new friends and didn’t mind living here after all!

DC & I  have made lots of friends here and love them all but it’s not like having family, which we are now trying to have a transfer to be near family due to my episode that happened to me this past January. We are hoping that the government will allow us to move and make it easier for us than doing other options.

Like I said before in the last post, I have lived with MVP (Mitral Valve Prolapse) for so many years and had surgery, went back to my regular routine again. So when we moved to Manitoba, I still continued to see my Cardiologist back in Alberta since I had seen him for so long that there was no reason for me to switch to another Cardiologist because it was only once a year, and Manitoba Health was going to allow me to see him once a year. Again every year that we have been here in Manitoba, the same routine by my Cardiologist. When I had my surgery in 2004, I felt that I was over weight and decided to join Curves, to help me be at a healthy weight. My starting weight was 158 lbs, when I had my surgery I ended up being at 149 lbs. I had lost almost 10 lbs by surgery, I couldn’t believe it! I didn’t want my weight to start with just dropping almost 10 lbs , which I felt was unhealthy! So I went to Curves and did all the exercises and watched my calories etc. I went to Curves for almost 3 yrs and maintained my weight at 147 lbs and just stayed there! The Cardiologist told me that a healthy weight for me was around 135 lbs and not to go dramatically up or down due to my heart condition.

I found out that we had a Curves here, where we live but they had inconvenient times, so I stopped going. I decided to go to the gym instead, I even got a local “personal trainer” to help me with all the equipment and how to use them properly so I wouldn’t hurt myself. I did that for a year, I didn’t see any progress at all! My weight stayed the same, I had only lost one inch! one inch around every part of my body and I have to admit, I was very frustrated! I decided to stop going to the gym. Until a very close friend of mine decided she was needing a change herself and started using Jillian Michael’s DVD called the 30 Day Shred. She asked me if I would be interested in working out with her three days a week.

I did take her offer because I thought to myself “why not’? I wanted to keep fit and be healthy so I joined her. We did it together for almost two yrs, three days a week! I saw so much results and so did she! We had a great time doing this together, which was nice because it got us to know each other since we both had things in common. With just using the 30 Day Shred, I had lost so many inches and weight which I was sitting at 142 lbs at the first 6 months of starting the shred. At the end of our two yrs of using the shred I ended up being 135 lbs, which was my goal! I was so happy and impressed that I did it!

While I was doing all this exercise, I was feeling great! I didn’t feel tired, didn’t have hardly any migraines, loved it! My Cardiologist was happy that I was keeping my self healthy and exercising and knowing my limits.

So 2010, my Brother K, and sister-in-law M, had started running, they both signed up for runs. K for his very first run ( which I couldn’t believe) he signed up for a half marathon, M signed up for a 5 k. They both were training for their runs and did the run Oct 2010, which I was so proud of them both that they had inspired me.

January 2011, I had decided my New Year’s Resolution, and to go through with it (this time lol) was going to run a 5 k for the very first time…………